You have been called to write because there are messages of hope that are needed by the people of the world and you have the gift that can help them understand because you are a vocabulary filter that allows a good interpretation of the word energy flowing to you.
Do not allow the shadows of contrast in your life to obstruct your service to the people and the light that you carry. As you like to say in Reiki that you are the UPS man of God’s love, you here are the messenger of Divine messages that may or may not make sense to you as you know already still.
You are having a human experience and could easily allow that to cast doubt on your quality of message receipt. Be not concerned for missteps by you will not be significant enough to offset the balance of good. All thoughts of doubt should be seen as strategic efforts by the enemy to stifle the flow of light to the world.